What is the biggest sadness in the world?
Think about it. What has been your biggest sadness so far? Perhaps for many people, it is an experience of sending a precious person to heaven.
There is only one order between people, the order of birth. A man has an order when he comes, but no order when he goes. The order in which a person is born and receives a resident registration number is set, but the order in which he/she reports death to heaven is not set.
One wise man said this. It is a great blessing if a person goes up to heaven in the order of birth. If the order in which a person is born is reversed and the person born later goes up to heaven first, it will cause great sadness. Imagine that. How would you feel if your child died before your parents?
One of the things that anyone has to experience without exception is the sadness of death. It's a sad fate of man. Anyone should experience the death of grandfathers and grandmothers, and watch their father and mother die. In this way, humans must learn, but one of the most difficult things to learn is the sadness of death.
What happens when your parents die? Perhaps you will feel the sadness of the sky collapsing. What happens if your child suddenly dies first? You'll probably feel miserable sadness.
So it's good to be nice to your family or precious people first. Because we don't know the time and order when a person goes up to heaven. "Do well when there are people, don't regret it," like the lyrics of the song widely known to the public, you should do well when you are close and precious. There is nothing we can do only when a loved one or a precious person leaves for heaven and cries and shouts. So you have to do well when you have someone you love.
This is how I feel about death. When I heard of my grandfather's death as a child, I felt surprised and scared for a moment rather than sad. It was the first time I recognized a precious person leaving for heaven. When I first saw my second brother suddenly die in a car accident in his early 30s, I felt a combination of life's emptiness, anger, and sadness. When my parents died, my heart was pounding, and I felt despondent and sad. I prayed in my mind for months and prepared for a rainy day, but the feeling of sadness was inevitable.
And recently, when my child went to a dangerous situation due to Corona, I felt scared for a moment, and I really knew what "I'm out of my mind" means with my whole body. My mother told me many times that she had great sadness in her heart until she died after losing her second son, and now I think I know why a little.
When I was working in Indonesia in my mid-30s, I was on the verge of death due to an unknown disease. When I lie down in the hospital emergency room and can barely breathe, and fear of death comes, please 'save me' without realizing it. 'Save me,' I found myself praying earnestly. I didn't want to die so soon. I still remember that time vividly. After the experience of dying, every moment of my daily life felt like a calm happiness, such as eating with my wife and taking a walk with my child.
During my 60 years of life, I experienced various life-sickness and joy-sickness and joy-sickness and joy-sickness. I experienced various lives and deaths, joy and sadness. If people can live with this enlightenment in their youth, I think the happiness index of life will increase while maintaining good relationships with precious people.
We have to do well when a precious person is around. "Do well when there are people, don't regret it, don't be swayed." This is your last chance Like the lyrics of the song, 'Now open the door to your heart~', now you have to open the door to your heart and be nice to your precious person. Put down the hate and resentment in my heart, only with love.
I don't know when he'll leave me.